the truth

okay, so I really exaggerated a little bit ago about my baking/cooking skills.  I am really not  very good at all, but I was trying to pump myself up to get myself going on something that might help my family out a little bit. I am still going to try to start making cupcakes, but I need a lot of work before then.

I am having troubles with some parts of my life right now...

Here is my day:

7:00 wake up and feed liam
8:00 Autumn wakes up and eats breakfast
10:00 Autumn takes bath
12:00 Autumn has lunch
1:00 Autumn takes nap
1:00-3:00 clean house
5:00 make dinner
6:00 eat dinner
8:00 Autumn goes to bed
9:00 I start getting ready for bed

This isn't just my schedule, these are the HIGHLIGHTS of my day.  Everyday the same thing.  I am starting to get really warn out.  I have been trying to do things extra like make up things to bake and cook, sew, knit... I am even teaching myself to play the banjo.  This is all fun and dandy, until I realize that I still have the same problem- I am always alone.  I have tried reaching out to people and it just doesn't seem to work, sad day.

I have thought a lot about having game nights, or baking days, or just plain making dinner and inviting people over, but who would come? I love being a mom and wife, I just didn't know it was going to be this lonesome.
Sorry for the sob story, hopefully tomorrow feels better. 

woot

I just thought I would let everyone know that I hit 150 lbs today.  Go me.

YEs!

I have had an "ah-ha!" moment, just now, as I sit at my computer.  


Recently, I have been wondering how I am going to be able to help support my family AND be a stay-at-home mom.  Well, I like doing crafts and I like making things for people... Hmm

Then it hit me.

What is my absolute passion??  Food, yes food.  I love it.  There is barely anything that can top eating something that makes your taste buds rejoice in hallelujias!  I want to be humble, but there is no way to get around it when I say, I am a dang good cook, every night I cook dinner my hunny groans in delight as the meal I prepared hits the flavour side of his brain.  It truly is a thing of pride and self-satisfaction to cook not just good, but fantastic meals. But enough about cooking... I want to talk about baking.


I have been baking twice as long as I have been cooking.  Talk about comfort.  Getting a baked good, whether it be bread of a pie brings such warmth and joy to your heart, that words cannot describe.  I just love a delicate treat to savour to really enjoy a special day, or to make a bad day feel amazing.
I'm talking CHOCOLATE, VANILLA, BANANA, CREAM CHEESE, NUTS, BERRIES... talk about comfort.


So, to finally get to where I am going;


I am going to start a bakery-type business.  I will mostly do cupcakes, but I can do other things as well.  I'm talking about the moist, rich, decadent, so dreamy that when you only see a picture of it your mouth starts to water cupcake.

It will be out of my very own kitchen... And it will take time to start, but I am going to do it.  So... I have no time any more for my craft blog, I am off on a new journey.  Wish me luck!

Hmmm...

I have started a new diet... Well I actually started on Sunday... I am not going to say what it is, I will reveal it when I am done.
Here's my progress so far:


Day 1: 160
Day 2: 158
Day 3: 155


No, I'm not starving myself :) 

Winter

...in the ozarks

Home, Sweet Home.

Soon to come!

Soo... I made a new blog.  This one is about my life.  My new blog is about the things I make up in my brain.  Please enjoy... if you want to...

This is it!

Oh goodness...

A very good offer has come my way... Though, we weren't wanting another dog.  I would'nt mind an outside dog, ONLY an outside dog...  And just LOOK at those eyes! 

 

Well, what do you think? Should I say yes?

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Gah! I have NO idea what to name this poor excuse for a blog! Any ideas??

20 hours away is too far....

I am having friend withdrawls....

About a year and a half ago, Charlie and I encountered 2 very amazing people.  I don't know how it happend so fast, but we really clicked with them well, enough that I would say they were and still are the best friends we have ever had.  They are just down right amazing people!  Since then they have added a beautiful little girl to their family and I couldn't be more sad that I haven't met her yet.  I know that they most likely have a ton of other friends and a lot of other people consider them their best friends, but you know, thats alright.  I am still incredibly grateful that I have had the privlage to have them in our lives.

Thank you so much Scott and Jenna.  I don't think you guys know how much you have upifted our little family.

Gus is very large and in charge.

I cut my hair! And colored it... but I'm not sure if I like the color yet... I think I may go back to dark brown, oh well, time will tell.  

Pictures to come in near future.

Rain

Don't you just love a rainy day?  I absolutly adore them... 

I was thinking, would anyone like to come over to play games, drink hot chocolate, eat home-made salsa and get to know us better?  We are pretty cool people, who make pretty good salsa. 

Also, I cried watching Conan O'Brian last night.  I never thought I would EVER say that... I have been watching him for years now, I really hope he finds something with another network.  Team Coco all the way.

flapjack.

Our life just keeps taking so many different turns.  Charlie got the opportunity to go to school instead of join the air force as a grunt.... So, now Charlie is going to school and getting his BS... THEN he is joining the air force, in like, 4 years.  So, Springfield, we are here to stay! For now anyway.

This new development has put a damper on some of my plans of "walking away" from things I don't like here.  I guess I am just going to have to face them head-on and learn to live with them.  So that certain someone and particular situation I really despise is just going to have to be lived with... ugh, don't you just hate dealing with uncomfortable situations?

Now that everyone knows EXACTLY what I am talking about, I am going to change the subject...

I am very ready for spring... oh, delicious spring.

I am going to start shopping for Chickens.  Chickens that will lay eggs in the coop in my yard... or in bushes... or wherever they feel the need to lay eggs...

And, I am going to sew this dress.

Also, I would like to start having a game night once a month with friends.  Anyone up for it?

The end.

This morning...

I woke up craving the outdoors this morning... In fact, since it is above freezing, maybe we will go to Busiek...

finally!

I have gone through a ton of changes with my blog, but the final layout is here! thanks for the patience...

Thats some good pie ya'll!

Sara Zahn loves her some Paula Deen.

Because everything is better with butter.

Thank you!

For those of you who helped- Thank you so much!

I looked through all of the suggestions and I believe I have come across the ONE I like the best :) And! It is in my price range!  So now I have ultra incentive! 135 lbs here I come!

help!

I have 2 months until I will celebrate my 3 year anniversary :)

So, with that said... I have two months to lose 20 more lbs.  If I reach my goal, I am going to reward myself and get all dolled up with a new dress and heels.  I am a Huge fan of a classy, black dress and red lipstick look... but i have no idea where to even begin looking for ideas.  So, I am asking or help... I grew up only shopping two times a year, and even then I only bough jeans and t-shirts... So I am not good at the whole shopping thing AT ALL.  Please help me :S Anyone have any ideas??

Autumn's Birthday!  Yay!

This cake took me 4 hours (at least) to make. And it was SO worth it.

In other news, I have offically swept the last bit of Christmas out the door.  It feels amazing to have the cabin feeling clean and ready for spring.  Which, with it being 0 outside, I am SO ready for spring.

January is here as well, so the dreaded resolutions have decided to poke their heads into my life yet again.

I am not good a resolutions, but this year I think I smell the winds of change knocking at my door.

Here is what 2010 has in store for Sara Zahn:

1. Finally hit my wieghtloss goal ( 40 lbs down, 25 lbs to go)

2. Hubby will join the airforce, thus causing our little family to pack up and move.

3. We are taking a trip to the Florida Keys to do some camping and ocean swimming :)

4. I WILL make new friends ( I haven't done this for three years...) Go me!

5. I am going to do A LOT more sewing/knitting/baking, you know, the creative stuff.

6. Lastly, yet most importantly, I am going to kick my "severe depression/anxiety" out the window, I am sick and tired of it and I am ready for a very new me.

So, 2010 here I come!

And, to start things off right, anyone want to come over to our place for a game night? There will be free food :D

Today is the Day!

It's Snowing!!!  

Your Invited!

What: Autumn's Birthday + Sledding + Hot Chocolate + CAKE! = Coolawesomefuntime

Who: Anyone and everyone who can make it to our home

When:  3:30 to whenever the snow melts

Where: Tiny Town

            1601 E 562nd Rd.

             Brighton, MO 65617

Wo0t.

This will be a pretty long post so please bear with me and feel free to stop reading if you get bored... Not that anyone actually reads my blog... 

I was completely spoiled this year! I am so excited about everything I got that I feel the strong urge to put it on here:

 

 

My dear husband got me the MSR Dragonfly backpacking stove and fuel bottle, a Gerber Clutch multi-tool, Carefree Clothes for Girls pattern book, a Nalgene water bottle (that doesn't break, even if you run it over with a car....), and both Charlie and I got a 14 gallon fish aquarium  that we are slowly putting together, Geoff gave us a whole load of Sandalwood incense and my parents got us the the Magic Bullet ( I have yet to use it, but I am VERY excited)

Ontop of all this, I got A LITTLE candy a lot of healthy snacks in my stocking... I guess Santa got the memo that I am trying to get back into shape:)

That reminds me,  my Christmas present to myself was... I am now at 155 lbs!! :D oh happy day!

I hope everyone had an amazing holiday! Happy New Year!